The Cage & Key
These lyrics are from a poem that my talented brother, Sean, wrote before he passed away. He wrote about the struggle of intrusive thoughts and the exhaustion that comes with addiction. The line, “I’m not a weak person, I had a weak moment” was a message from him given during a mediumship reading after he passed. Regardless of whether it was him or not, it struck a chord. If he wanted someone to take anything from this, it would be that: “I have been there, and many people feel this way right now too. I know that it doesn’t take away the exhaustion or the pain, but many people have come out of this. It comes in waves, kind of like when someone you love dies. Some of us must choose our rock bottom. Sometimes, it doesn’t feel like an epiphany or that moment you hear people talk about when telling their life stories. It’s a decision you make and to take one day at a time. You’re going to be ok.” (- His words to me many times.)
Oh-Oooh
Drive down with the radio
Holding them out the window
This smile doesn’t feel quite right
Oh, I’m holding onto it so tight!
Oh-Oooh
Did I think something wrong?
Oh, I fucking had it and now it’s gone
Behind the curtains of my brain
Domesticate these thoughts, please!
Make them tame
Oh-Oooh
Eyes can’t open in the dark
You can see it reflected in my art
Crawl into bed still clean
Sober, another victory,
But
I feel so empty
Well I’m not a weak person
I had - a weak moment
I’m not a weak person
I had a weak moment